Moving to the Netherlands

About Leaving What You Had Before and Starting Over

What comes to your mind when you hear about moving to a new country where the language and the culture are so unfamiliar?

What comes to your mind when you have to build anything from zero when you actually had a great one in your previous part of life?

What comes to your mind when you had to leave your family to build "a new family" in a different place?

Well, that happened to me.

I didn’t find an exact word to describe my feelings.
It's such a mixed feeling.
I feel happy at some points, but I also feel sad.
I feel that I leave everything behind, but I also feel excited.

I am currently grappling with certain expectations.
I sometimes feel lost.
I feel like I need to figure everything out, right away.
I feel like I was missing something, but I don’t know what.
I feel like I want to hold back my tears, but at times, I also feel like I want to cry uncontrollably.

I hope my future self can discover what she wants.
I hope she can find her happiness without any interventions.
I hope she can be herself, be authentic, and truly honest with herself.
I hope my future self can always find her happiness.